Unravel

Breathe.
Sometimes I get worked up thinking about things. Like it’ll start with one little thought about how I need to do one thing and then 3 min later I’ve piled on extra things and now I’m near tears and my breathing has changed. Inhaling and exhaling at controlled rates becomes difficult. I look around to reconnect myself, to gain control.
Stretch.
I forget to loosen my muscles after exercise sometimes. So it only makes sense that after deep thinking bouts I just continue and never give my brain a break. It’s always on go, rarely a time where I’m not thinking and only doing. Like I’m typing out my thoughts right now but really there are more thoughts on top of these. But is it all a stretch to the point that I’m making everything up and the reason for my own unhappiness. Maybe I only ever open up about surface things and never stretch to get to the real issues. I don’t know the real issues. I want to try yoga – it could bring me peace.
Shake.
It’s hard to bring myself back to reality sometimes or stop with the spiraling thoughts. One thing always leads to another. I’ve tried to go forward but I seem to drift left. No, forward. Which way is that? It’s like I’m in the middle of a room and everything that bothers me is surrounding me. I’m facing one part right now and then it goes out of control so I try to shake it off and then I just turn to the next thing. It’s a repetitive thing of being stuck on thoughts. Not very good at releasing these things. Having trouble.

Can’t let it go.

To be continued…