Hey you, nice to see you again.
See, I did that thing where I go missing after having such success in the first few months of the year and leave you hanging. I truly didn’t mean to, but the way I ended up living two different years in one had me in shambles. I couldn’t do anything; I literally sacrificed my peace and went spiraling to the point of almost no return. By the time I was able to slow the impact of the crisis, I didn’t know who I was, nor did I have anything to show for being in such a ghetto situation. I had to deal with things I didn’t know I had held on to for so long and, while I’m probably better now, all of that wasn’t needed.
So for 1, never sacrifice your peace. I look back and realize I was down to let my peace go for temporary pleasure, and for a person who I thought was worth it. Turns out that nobody or no thing is worth you turning into a crazed person who’s crumbling with every aspect of life. But if you know me, you know I haven’t been one to learn lessons the easy way. I can tell you FOR SURE, though, that I’m NOT doing that dumb shit again. Baby, nobody is worth me losing the ability to sleep at night, look at myself in the mirror and not cry, or worth me not being happy just to be.
And for 2, I’m good on learning lessons the hard way. I get it the first time and really, I don’t even wanna be the first-hand hard lesson learner. I’ll learn from everyone else’s mistakes now if that’s okay with you (God)… get somebody else to do it. I want to be the easy lesson learner for things like new recipes, what happens when you book flights in advance, on-the-job training for a new job I want, etc. I’m not trying to fuck around and find out anymore. I’ve found enough for me and you.
The year is 2023 now and I’m so happy I made it. I don’t know about y’all, but I’m ‘95-‘96 Jordan on my way to my 4th ring with some of the best stats you’ve ever seen. He experienced great loss during that season and even though it’s not the same, I still experienced loss in 2022. Last year brought the death of a lot of thoughts and ideas I had, and the death of major pain. I only want a soft life and wins from here. Them lessons, consider them learned. I don’t even like roller coasters so why would I send my life in a loop de loop?? Yeah I’m off that ride.
2023, please be good to me.
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