I’m trying to change my mindset about things right now. It’s 4 am and really I was aggressively awakened at midnight but was able to collect a few more hours before waking up to reflect. This month has been LONG for me but for others I know it was quick and more quiet than the new normal. The pandemic is still going on but people are refusing to let outside just go unbothered. I’ve gotten so many texts and calls this month from the voting and warranty scammers that I’m glad I was finally able to disconnect both numbers for a while. I’ve lost and then regained one of my best friends this month. I’ve made amends to past situations and left other situations to just rest as they should – everything you go through won’t have closure, sometimes you just have to learn to heal from it on your own. This whole year has been set aside for me to heal and grow but I realize I may have distracted myself with my business and staying on go instead of focusing on things I know still hurt. Putting the next foot forward in front of the other is the only thing I know, but while doing so I should take more time to figure out what each situation may have taught me about myself and how I can – if need be – respond differently. Certain situations just don’t need to continue to live in my mind rent free so now I’m making more of a conscious effort to get past that. I’ve honestly slacked on journaling this year. Yes, Waneisha the Blogger slacked on journaling [eye roll]. I let myself get so consumed with other things that I only made my journal entries a once a month thing for you all to read, I forgot to just do it for me along the way. Maybe I’m trying to do too much?
I had to actually do a two week quarantine this month in the most uncomfortable situation. I complained first, then adapted. Things could’ve always been worse but certain things we went through there could’ve been avoided. I learned that just being respectful through it could get me further (and help me find a connect lol). You get what you put out of any situation and I refused to lose hair or sleep (voluntarily) over something I couldn’t control. Letting go of the reigns is tough but sometimes it’s needed – well not to fully let go but to loosen them just a tad. That time gave me time to revamp some things with my business, add others, and truly tap into my creative side and become more intentional with learning more and bettering myself. Quarantine also gave me the opportunity to really respect and accept decisions I’ve made in my life.
Overall I’m still learning.
I’m still trying to figure out what I can learn from things to be better but I know I’m not perfect. Holding my tongue has been a trial and error type of deal – if I thought it I probably said it out loud [face palm]. October has still been a great month in spite of…
Still trying to figure out how to make it all balance out… October has been a blessing in a weird way. Speak life into situations, no matter how ghetto they are. There is power of life and death in the tongue. Also remember that spelling is a spell, write down your goals. You need to see them and say them out loud. And take time to heal… whether its 4 AM or two weeks in quarantine. Until next time….
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